Cover your mouth when you walk outside kid,
your lungs will freeze out here.
As if i didn't know

Walking through clouds of black smoke,
made up of diesel fuel, cigarettes and the the realization,
of just how fast the clock can possibly tick.

The sun IS there buddy,
just hidden behind a never ending sheet of ice,
finding out exactly how fast it can melt out from under you.

Faster trains, running silent on steel rails,
making express calls to homes who wished
the phone could stay quiet,
one more night.

Faster than razors edge meeting friendship,
and leaving it to die in the street.

Faster than blind corners.

Much faster than a heart can skip a beat,
or ten.

So leave your blades at the door friends,
i'll craft one of words,
Mayan sacrifices are the new rage!
Lets pay our penance.

If only we could replace,
the hearts we've already taken.

Pharmaceuticals

This fear,

It's really natural,

we can help you,

ingest this lie,

those frozen parts

will soon be all but

forgotten

You won't feel,

anything,

the cold can be your friend,

remember,

this is what you wanted.

the man,

payed to reach the depths of my mind,

that I myself haven't seen,

since the sunlight,

offers up a pen. 

thoughts churn, through darkened halls,

dusting off the books I dare not open,

times when i was not afraid,

before my pure white page,

had become spatted and cut

by the sharp pen i used to write,

pens replaced,

with sickness,

the self infliction stayed the same,

books whose endings I dare not read

I remember the decision,

i wanted someone else to look upon them,

smile and say,

"what a beautiful story, will you read it to me?"

So maybe to someone, 

I can be more,

not just something 

Vague.

The pen reaches towards me,

it says,

let go,

please

just fit in.

I stand,

and refuse that tantalizing offer,

of becoming a machine,

i'd rather fear the coming night

and become someones 

favorite story.